Creamy crack

I had a moment of weakness and bought a relaxer. I had the relaxer sitting in my bathroom cabinet for a month, before I decided to use it. After watching youtube videos, I thought I had enough kwnoledge and skills to maintain my relaxed hair. So I went ahead and put a relaxer in my hair the front is now relaxed while the back is still natural. Why would you ask, would a person do something like that. I installed a weave in the back and left the front relaxed because i don't like the full sew-in look. Besides the afro was not flattering on me and I was fed up with the braiding styles.
I know this blog is called natural sisters and I am still contemplating about whether I should go back to natural or stay relaxed.Sighh I wish that I had stayed strong and kept it natural though because I liked the idea of having an afro.It makes you feel stronger and more secure but only if you're ready for it.